i'm having a rough time and people are being shitty and i hate everyone and everything and can't even have my mind to myself. it's fucking awful being lonely with no one to show you any real compassion because you have to attention seek for it here like this, or just have to shoulder each burden, like a fresh layer of awful clay on the muddy soldier. it becomes even more isolating when nobody seems to understand. i fucking hate it, i'm so miserable.