>>69693 (OP)
>I just want to find a way how
There are plenty of good ways. The main thing to consider is how much time you have alone and whether you want things to be irreversible if you later try to pussy out.
What's your situation? I don't mean what's driving you to this, I mean, do you live alone, what's the longest period where you can reasonably expect nobody will see you and work won't notice you missing and nobody will be over and stuff?
Do you care if it hurts a lot?
There's pretty gentle ways to go out but they're easier to change your mind on.
>>69694
Kill yourself retard