i cant stop hurting my loved ones because i'm not getting enough sleep because i have to provide for my loved ones, so i am mad and everyone around me gets upset at me for being mad but i can't help it, nor do i have the energy to meet any emotional demands of my loved ones because i'm not getting enough sleep and i really need sleep but i have to provide for them and i can't figure out what to do but go to sleep but if i do, the loud daytime noises wake me up and the sun shines into my eyes and i can't sleep and i am losing my mind right now, i can't find sustainability, only stress and isolation because nobody understands me which leads to depravity. Lord have mercy on my soul.