>>55509
And another thing. I know what it's like to do something to silly as develope an ego associated with an internet persona, I've basically done that 2 times, and both times made an ass of myself. Don't grow attached to outcomes, and ironically, things go better. Also feel no obligation to continue to be around a place that leads you to this kind of thinking. Just chill and do something better with your time Gado. Don't fret it too much. I don't know if whatever your problem is is similar but just because I suspect it I figured I'd say this.
>>55511
Please brother do not fret it. You have to learn to be humble as well. Get out of your own head and try to be greatful. Your situation with your grandparents might also not be great, but they need you, just be there for them while they need you. It's not worth doing something so terrible as killing yourself over this, and I know you aren't worthless because you are alive and a capable man (plus Aryan).