/s4s/ - anime pillow fight

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>>49950 (OP) 
Thank you

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why do you think that is?

I will always be here until my heart stops beating.. I have nowhere else to be..

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I'm still here isn't that fucking hilarious..

>>50024
Im glad you’re here and that you posted a cute picture

>>50027
that makes one of us

>>50028
well if it doesn’t make you happy then why are you doing it?

>>50030
I feel like it..

>>50031
i find that im happier when i do things that make me happy, even if my brain tells me i don’t feel like it

>>50034
yeah.. I haven't done anything all day really.. been trying to fix myself slowly, maybe too slowly..

>>50035
it gets easier and easier the more you try but it’s really hard to get the ball rolling and really easy to fall back into bad habits

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>>50037
yeeeah..

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>>50038
it’s even harder because in the end you just have to be there for yourself… and while loving yourself is important… it can feel a little lonely sometimes.

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>>50039
sometimes the loneliness never processes, those are happier times..

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>>50040
at my best i try and take care of myself with the gentleness with which id treat a close friend or a child

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>>50041
I'm poor in the treatment of others, can't figure it out.. can't express shit..

>>50042
maybe watch some shoujo anime and take notes…

>>50043
I don't watch much anymore ever..

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>>50044
you need to find things you enjoy doing just for the sake of doing! that way when you’re lonely or restless you have something to do that you enjoy. or at least something that takes your mind off things. lately i read a lot of manga.

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>>50045
I should start work on a new game tomorrow.. probably anyway.. unless I want the pile of ideas in my head to rot away as usual..
getting started is the hardest part..

>>50046
writing things down is super good for you too. i find my mental state to be much more stable when im journaling consistently

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>>50048
I usually only write down random ideas, not necessarily everything
I feel like if I were to try to write everything down I might either get too lazy to keep doing it or it might consume too much time.. not that I spend my time doing much anyway I guess..
do you write often or more at specific times instead of throughout the day..

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>>50050
ive been slacking on my journaling lately, but i usually do it before bed or whenever i find myself really emotional. the first couple weeks of journaling were kind of crazy, once i started writing i couldn’t stop until i was too exhausted to keep going and id write like 5000 words per entry. over time i found I had less to write on average, which was nice because it felt like i was getting all the thoughts trapped in my brain out of there onto the paper, so they stopped bouncing around in my brain all the time

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>>50051
seems a bit lonely.. I guess I might get it but typing to myself feels more like a chore than an outlet, maybe because it offers no attention from anyone else..
a dependence on others to listen isn't great when there's hardly anyone around

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>>50052
yeah. sometimes i just make up people or things to motivate me to do stuff when im really struggling lol. i have to make my shoulder angel happy… also i type my journals out on my phone. I don’t think I could write that much without my hand falling off.

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>>50053
yeah when I say write I mean typing as well, don't have the pencils to spare for writing, my handwriting is awful too
I find it difficult to conjure up motivation..

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waow the people in this thread seem really nice. i hope u all enjoy ur day!

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>>50054
though i haven’t kept up on journaling well as of late im proud of myself for getting my bedtime routine to be consistent. even though some nights i reeeaaaallly don’t feel like doing it for inexplicable reasons, i always feel way way better after I do, and some nights i find myself doing it without even thinking 

>>50055
nice dubs

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>>50056
it's okay as long as you feel better..
sleep is important..

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>>50057
sleep is very important… before the last two nights i had only been sleeping like two hours a night for a week or two cuz i was kinda manic it was lowkey really bad and i had such terribly intense mood swings LOL

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>>50058
I luckily never have issues getting to sleep.. though sometimes nightmares and waking up over and over again..
my mania hardly ever lasts.. I get pretty destructive.. probably for the best..

>>50059
sleep is one of the greatest things ever… nothin quite like it…

>>50060
mhm..

>>50060
i wake up seeing silent hill monsters approaching me

>>50066
scary dubs… i hope u have enough ammo…

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I'm sorry I exploded and killed you, my only friend..

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I started working on my newer game and kinda got really really tired and stopped.. difficult to come up with ideas..

>>50121
it'll be okay... 

>>50149
good job starting work. did you make sure to write things down.

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>>50151
I admittedly haven't written anything down for this specific project, it's all in my head at the moment.. I will work on that..
it is a bit difficult to write down a lot of things like ideas for how to structure game systems as that's all code and code is usually best described as itself (maybe with a few comments so my demented ass doesn't forget how things work)..

>>50152
ikwym, im trying to figure out how to organize the room i just moved into in my head and im like "i wish i could write this down.. .but.... im not sure how to write it down....."
im excited for your game though!! i hope you are able to make good and continuous progress on it

>>50154
I hope I can manage to keep developing it unlike the biggest project I've started and have yet to finish about 9 months later..

>>50155
finishing projects can be hard... but thats why i believe routine is super important (even if i dont always take my own advice)!! im always looking at my life and going "fuck. everything goes 100000x better and i feel 100000000x when i have a routine and plan things ahead of time and write in my journal" etc. etc. etc.

>>50156
yeah..

>>50157
ganbatte squishy. let's both do our best today (even if it's already 3pm and im just getting started)

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>>50158
I did some sketches earlier.. some concept stuff.. then got a headache ehe..

>>50159
make sure youre drinking enough water and stuff. headaches are miserable i rarely get them compared to like high school but now when i get them theyre like so bad i want to die. i have the utmost sympathy for anyone struggling with migraines. what kind of game is it if you can share??

>>50160
I was playing Cogmind earlier and that added to my ideas for what I'm working on which is a basic top down RPG about rats, kinda inspired by The Elder Scrolls.. and maybe a bit like old games like the original Legend of Zelda, I am not a great artist..
I've made top down prototypes before but nothing super elaborate, I'm better with 3D code but I guess 2D is just simpler and shouldn't be harder..
I don't want to make a roguelike or something turn-based..

>>50161
that sounds kinda cool. im impressed with anybody who's able to like code/make things AND do art cuz im like i cant do either LOL. thats so impressive. i bet its gonna be awesome.

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I made Conway's game of life to get the tile shit working..

>>50315
omg game of life is so cool i love all the little patterns and stuff. keep up the good work!!!

>>50341
I'm kinda slow sorry..

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I've opted to go for a turn-based game when I said I wouldn't.. just because I think it fits this aesthetic better and is easier to make, this is the pathfinding overlay..

>>50342
that’s okay :-3
>>50347
Looks dope. i have the utmost faith in you.

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I have basic AI working, pathfinding, dollar store raycasting for collision checking and line-of-sight..
pretty easy mapping, haven't added much to that but I can create maps easily and it loads and runs them fine with collision and stuff..
this screenshot is taken during the "day" during which the color palette changes..
the performance of all of this crap in GDScript is questionable, I've made the AI only process every 4 ticks and tried to make the pathing sparsely recalculated to lower the time it takes on average to tick..

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I need to spend more time on the computer

>>50420
so complex…

>>50516
sometimes you need to spend more time on the computer and sometimes less.. it’s difficult to find a balance…

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>>50526
I needed to create Nanazi

>>50528
why won't you make me art

>>50529
what do you need..

>>50530
an artist...

>>50531
for what..

>>50532
for things... idk...

>>50533
do you just need an excuse to talk to me or something, I don't quite get it

>>50528
lole cute

>>50534
no... it's too embarrassing to admit though.

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>>50536
incomprehensible and impossible to work with sorry

>>50537
even if i did admit it, you'd likely be reluctant anyways...

everyone is...

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>>50538
>>50539
I don't fear you and I'm not upset with you, I also have nothing banking on your existence so I don't fear a damn thing you say
you can talk to me privately, just unblock me, I don't bite anymore and I'm no prick

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this is another game I've been working on intermittently, I'm really shit at coming up with ideas and adding something new is like starting over again, hence my difficulty in working on it consistently
I'm so le scawed of le codeshart

>>50540
w-what is going on…

>>50541
coming up with ideas is so hard. every time i try and think about “making” anything im like “hm it feels like all of my ideas are just ripoffs of other things”

>>50542
the ripoff feeling is something you just have to give up on fighting at some point, most ideas have already been done before and it's not like you wake up good at things that require copying and practice to get good at
gotta chew through being garbage to get to the point of being almost less garbage.. or something

>>50540

who is jimster..

>>50544
I don't know if I should be giving out information like that in this context..

>>50545
scary... do you at least know him?

>>50546
I guess

>>50547
he added me a few days ago, but i got scared because i didn't know who he was, so i just ignored it

>>50548
that was my last effort to get you to talk to me, because I'm not talking on /bant/ anymore

>>50549
so it's you? why aren't you talking on /bant/ anymore?

>>50550
that's not me, no, I only have one Steam account and you know its name well
/bant/ wastes a bit too much of my time, I do not enjoy being there

>>50551
but i like wasting time...

>>50552
too bad

>>50553
i'm scared of adding you though...

>>50554
you don't need to be, I'm not upset with you and honestly I didn't know it was you for the longest time until recently in that long ass thread on /bant/
I'm not going to attack you and I kinda get nothing out of being mean to people anyway, I'm quite lonely myself

>>50555
consecutively repeating numerals...
i've been seeing those a lot for a while. 
maybe we'll figure something out eventually

>>50558
nothing ever changes if nothing is ever done..

>>50559
you can't make me... the loneliness contributes to my paranoia

>>50560
keep pressing it and I'll just assume you're fucking with me.. do what you want..

>>50562
i'm just as much of a creative as you are, i just focus my attention in a different area... but ok...

>>50564
I don't know who is who anymore here so I'll just shut up..

>>50565
meow

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tonight I think I will overdose..

>>50602
with what

water..

I think I will also take a very long bath..

>>50605
baths are so cozy. I haven’t taken one in years

>>50605
you gonna play with yourself

>>50726
Nick

>>50729
what now..

>>50730
nothing
good meowning

>>50732
kawaii

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this doesn't look like osage I'm so tired

>>50737
uohhh 😭

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