/s4s/ - anime pillow fight

ive been crying all day

>>49716
how come squishy

>>49718
you're always asking questions, i'm scared of you

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>>49720
sorry i think i have the tendency to project my need/desire to talk about my feelings on to others

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>>49722
awa
awawawa

wish i had friends

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what's wrong with me? i don't know who i am or what i even want, but i always act as though i do. i'm as phony as they come.

>>49725
i tend to get really confused or frustrated when people don’t open up or want to share their feelings because im like “why are u even talking to me then!?!?” but ive been realizing that everyone is just different and has different needs and ways of feeling supported and ive been trying to get better at that without developing a savior complex

>>49726
what sort of thing would you do with your friends if you had them?

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>>49730
in that sort of situation i think you really have to focus on yourself and what makes you happy, even if it’s just the little things. being genuine with others is really hard and scary and if u wear a mask for a long time it becomes a prison

>>49731
>what sort of thing would you do with your friends if you had them?
sex

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>>49731
it's okie, squishy. i'm just a little edgy right now. 

>>49733
;_;

>>49735
>just a little edgy
that’s oki:> i need to be better myself at not getting hurt or offended at stuff like that, it’s just been on my mind

>>49734
t-that sort of thing is scary…

>>49731
i don't even know, i'm such a dull uninteresting awkward person
like, at one point i entertained giving online dating a try to cope with my loneliness and when i thought about how would i need to write up a bio i had an almost existential crisis because i literally can't think of anything to put there

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>>49737
i get that. online dating (esp if you’re talking about dating apps) is kinda for normies though, ive often thought to myself “i will never find anything on a dating app because anyone using a dating app is seriously fundamentally different from me and we will not be able to relate to or understand each other.” at the same time, creating an identity is something i think you should do somewhat intentionally. it’s a double-edged sword, but if you feel like you aren’t anybody in particular, you can simply work on becoming your ideal self. it’s definitely not quite as simple as that, but you can truly become any kind of person with enough effort and intention.

>>49738
>i will never find anything on a dating app because anyone using a dating app is seriously fundamentally different from me and we will not be able to relate to or understand each other

that is my sentiment as well but what other option is there for someone without any social circle 
it was never a serious consideration anyway, i think i will just continue to do nothing and wallow in self pity

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>>49739
self-pity is a sad but comfy prison to put yourself in. even if you really SHOULD hate yourself though, nothing good comes of it. ive had to realize time and time again as i find myself wallowing that things will only get better if i make them better. having hope is pretty painful though. sometimes sadness or pain feel easier and safer

>>49740
☹️

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>>49742
it’s not too sad.. it’s a little painful but it is the way things are. i also think i want to be a better person so that ill be worthy of the people that i love. focusing on myself a little bit results in me being happier on my own and happier around others.

>>49743
I know... im sad because i completely lost that mentality in the latest year, and i keep feeling is useless at this point.
☹️

>>49744
it’s really hard and lonely. i think loneliness is uniquely difficult to deal with (which is why i post/attention whore on the internet lol) but ive just been finding things to do on my own that i enjoy for the sake of doing them, like watching shows i like or arranging my room in a way that makes me feel cozy. i hope you are able to find yourself again soon. i know u can and i promise you will be okay and happy someday

>>49745
Thanks🥲

I wonder if I know you or if there are several people behaving like this at the moment..

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>>49748
could be that there’s just something in the air…

>>49749
I'm unsure if I believe you..

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>>49750
well. i don’t think I know you, so…

>>49751
it's likely you don't know me, there are a lot of depressed GLT/Shimeji posters
difficult to discern between them..

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>>49752
hehe. i just posted big sis in the first post so i figured id keep up the tkmiz.

>>49753
they're cute images, anyway goodnight, even if I don't know you.. I guess..

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>>49755
goodnight mysterious stranger. sleep well.

and the they fucked

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>>49757
no im scared of that sort of thing.

>>49715 (OP) 
ive been crying and numb since january

>>49817
how come?

>>49817
wake up

>>49817
WAKE THE FUCK UP

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except me, going through a migraine induced neurotic episode again

I'M SO FUCKING TIRED AAAAAAAAAA