>>62128
>ii have no idea how to explain
I don't understand your autistic babbling most of the time either tbh, but using my few brain cells I can understand that you're like an empty shell with no dreams, goals, or motivation other than the bare minimum that still keeps you alive.
which is funny because that would be the antithesis of me, since I actually have so many dreams and goals that my life might not be long enough to achieve them all, and even the most insignificant thing I do outside of monotony becomes an adventure and uncontrollable excitement for me. I also tend to dream a lot and have very sensitive dreams that I confuse with reality, so I feel like I'm living another life every time I lie down in my bed. I've always thought that all of this is what helps me get on with my life (since I've had a lot of bad luck, actually) and not fall into sadness and deep depression because of it.
So if someone suddenly took all that away from me, I would be left with my boring, monotonous life, so maybe I can understand how horrible you must feel, living like an npc and not being able to find anything that really excites or interests you enough to fight for it.
>(i forgot how to tenshi im so sorry )
I never really knew what you were like when you knew how to tenshi, even looking through the s4s archives, I still can't see what you were like when your eyes sparkled, which makes me feel very sad
>aalso who were you again?
that doesn't matter, but anyway, I'm very happy you're back this place felt less cute without you, i just wish I could be alive when you become tenshi again.