>>48448
ummmm i dont know. i used to be on zoloft after trying a handful of other antidepressants and it helped a bit. at least i think i did. when i think back to that time i can't really remember what it was like or how i felt (also why i try to journal more now). even though i come off as super super depressed sometimes i think it's more that im so overwhelmed and stressed all of the time that i dont want to do anything and cant bring myself to put a lot of effort into anything or have hope for the future (and why weed probably seems to help my mental state so much). i got to a point in life where i felt like i didn't need zoloft anymore, and it kinda made me numb (which was okay when i was super suicidal) so i stopped taking it, but i seem to find myself down in the dumps and absolutely, hopelessly stuck in life again, only now i've wasted even more years away. to be entirely, shamelessly honest, one of the biggest reasons i don't want to go back on ssris is because they have so many bad interactions with drugs, and even though i dont really do drugs very often anymore aside from weed, i don't wanna miss out taking ecstasy at a rave if such an opportunity were to present itself....