>>45449 (OP)
>>45451
>>45454
wish, i really hope this isn't true. if you took that much, you should go to a hospital. im tired of people being shit to you, some people are shitty to you on here, and a LOT of people were espeially shitty to you on old s4s. but them being disgusting and taking out whatever narcissistic and/or dark triad shit on you doesn't make it ok, and it doesn't make you a bad person. they are the bad people, not you. you being bullied and harrassed doesn't make you a bad person. i used to be suicidal, and i made an attempt to take my own life. but i'm so glad i survived because i know now that if i was dead i'd be causing more pain to the people around me than me being alive does. when you're depressed, your brain hyperfocuses on what it thinks are flaws about yourself, which leads to you having a distorted negative perception about yourself. if you see yourself as a bad person, you're probably a much better person than you think if you're depressed as well. since you're suicidal, and if taking all those pills was an attempt, you should try to get yourself admitted to a psych ward if you can financially afford it, though i get that not everyone can afford it. i did my time, there's no shame in it. i've been in two, actually. the first was very helpful, they fixed my medication for the most part which before helped very little. they also connected me to more help afterwards, including residential treatment which to date has been the most helpful thing for my mental health. the second one did not treat me right. if they don't treat you right, call patients rights as many times as you can and the psych ward will either see you as a burden and let you go out of fear of legal consequence, or patients rights will help you out. bad psych wards fear patients rights, so just ask for their number and call the shit out of them if they mistreat you at the mental hospital. to get admitted to one, you just need to go to the general hospital (which you need to either way because you took way way way too much robotab) and then tell them you attempted if you did or are suicidal and they'll transfer you to a mental hospital. for the harrassment, it's ok to cut out people (and websites!) that don't respect you. you shouldn't respect people who don't respect you back. please live, and i genuinely hope you are ok