/s4s/ - anime pillow fight

i'm jealous of people who can do math or understand computers. i have a lot of things that seem interesting, but i know i can't even let myself start them because i know i'm not good enough at math to see them through to the end

>>44810
what math things would you like to start on if you had the ability?

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>>44810
lets goooooooooo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmJ-4B-mS-Y&t

>>44812
one of my interests is graphics programming and specifically light transport research, and i have an idea for a way to calculate light caustics, but it requires knowledge of topology and high level calculus and stuff. i'm too dumb at math to even know whether my idea would work or not

>>44815
the fact that you can even grasp any of that is impressive to me!! i hope you get the free time to at least write it down one day, maybe the knowledge can spread even if it's not perfectly expressed

>>44816
i'm a neet, i have all the free time in the world, adhd and depression just make it hard to invest time into things that don't make me happy like learning high level math

I'm jealous of smol hairless dicks. Mine is too big to be called cute.

>>44817
it really feels like people who are capable of learning high level math have different circuitry in their heads...
i feel the same towards violinists really
they're lucky lucky lucky at least in this one way i think about all the time

>>44820
lole violin is kind of easy i think. not as easy as cello, but a lot easier than flute or saxophone

>>44821
the skill ceiling is so high though!!!!!!!
i did rent a violin and learn pretty quickly but
i had nowhere to practice and my neighbors god mad at me
so i played next to HVAC units but it was embarassing
i guess im really just jealous of people who have a house lole

>>44822
ah yeah, the skill ceiling is incredibly high. i guess i just like more folksy styles of music so the off-kilter sound adds to the charm. aaaaaaaaa i'm going to go listen to 'peace behind the bridge' by the carolina chocolate drops now, it's some of my favorite fiddle music

>>44819
try hypnosis squishe 
in a hypnotized state you can have your organs stolen from you much easier

>>44823
i love john john festival www.youtube.com/watch?v=WdX78n0D3s4 and choro club 
it was so lovely when i went to brazil and listened to choro live hehe

>>44802 (OP) 
I'm jealous of people who are able to live a happy life. Or even able to live, all I do all day is suffering, every single day I woke up and I wish I didn't.

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i am not jealous of anyone. i am only recognizing that some people have been granted what is rightfully mine and i should hurt them for it

im jealous of people who know what they're doing in life i keep trying to go to college and realistically i could do anything but nothing feels meaningful or promising and i just want to give up.

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>>44983

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non-depressed people with money and a fursuit and friends

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im jelaous of couples...

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>>45037
any couple you see there is a 99.9% chance they aren't each other's first, which means they aren't even a couple but a pathetic larp

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>>44802 (OP) 
im jealous of
my girlfriend
people who are close to my girlfriend
people who live near my girlfriend
people who my girlfriend thinks are cute
people who have cigarettes right now
people who speak japanese
women
people better than me
people with more than me
people who dont suffer like me 
people who have a future
people who arent me

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>>45216
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

>>45218
dont worry she is thousands of miles away and i cant see her for who knows how long

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>>45220
sorry that was rude..

>>45220
ntr happening in real time

>>45235
she wouldnt but yes i think about it every single day 
i like to believe i have something that no one else does

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>>45253
i don't know what to tell you
you're up against billions of dollars in propaganda, hoping that a rational actor is not going to take an action with literally zero (apparent) consequences
i really don't want to tell you "see you in the incel mines in 10 years" but statistically that's where everyone's headed
alternatively you just give up and become a sex addict and std collector like everyone else, these are the two choices as far as i know

>>45273
we are both trannies so i think its a little different than what you are thinking,, maybe

>>45320
carry on then

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>>44802 (OP) 
i feel like i can learn most things but seeing people who can make friends and talk to people makes me seethe so hard
also singing

>>45355
we should all start a barbershop quartet

>>44802 (OP) 
i'm jealous of anyone who is happier and luckier than me

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>>44802 (OP) 
I wonder why Sayaka thinks so negatively about violinists.