i couldn't sleep at all last night. hands felt dry and itchy on the inside. mind was assaulted with harmful imagery. life has been so hard on me lately. feels like i'm succumbing to the weight of the world, and the selfishness of others only helps secure this as my burden. don't know what it's all for. at this point, all i crave is a mutual sense of understanding for what i'm going through. a shared validation based in unconditional terms; i know and see your pain, you know and see mine. that alone would mean catharsis to me. is that enlightenment in an existence where we continually hide from our pain in the shadows of unglorious pleasure? i don't know.