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idk what going psychotic means in relation to betting money

>>36535
youve never had a time where you dont even know what you are doing anymore or whats real but you keep playing?

Cant say i relate

who is this new wishspawn?

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>>36534 (OP) 
its been a long time since i was psychotic but gambeling was never my thing

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>>36538
how is wishe doing these days?

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>>36538
whats a wishspawn? i dont have hpd or bpd if thats what you are implying...

>>36539
i feel like youd bet all the money youve had while drunk if it were lol

>>36541
what about npd though

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>>36541
lole can be
i hope i never go to a casino when im le drunk

>>36542
im not cluster b ok. my empathy occasionally takes a downturn and sometimes do stuff thats antisocial/risky but other than that i think im normal...

>>36546
you close to one?

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>>36534 (OP) 
bitch

sluts4christ

>>36554
what do u use Teams for?

>>36557
sinisterism

>>36553
your post mentions going psychotic and being impulsive or not being able to stop yourself, cluster b personalities are closer to psychosis than most

>>36560
shut up

>>36561
no :trollface:

>>36559
ok so school

>>36553
there are a few "game halls" where you can play some kind of slot machines

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>>36559

>>36571
are ur eyes connected to urself

cute red eyes wish

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>>36572

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just fiinished grading a couple thousand questions finally. i need to spend less time playing umineko with sayo...

oh well... theres no rest for the wicked
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYxLnVfcaoU

>>36733
are you a teacher?
do you have sex with your students?

demi

https://youtu.be/90ZzI7C5Iqc?feature=shared it starts at 27

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>>36734
iim just a burned out teaching assistant. if i said ive never had such impure thoughts about my students would you believe me?

>>36574
i think yumeko having red eyes is just a collective hallucination

>>36740
demi demi demi. whats that supposed to mean?

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>>36742
i just realized this was the 27th reply to the thread as well... gh it can't be. what are th spiritual implications of this

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learning chess rn for a bet but i thought it probably wouldnt be fair if i did that without divulging some hidden (occult) tehcniques. hopefully the cia isnt going to take notice (lol)

where to start... hmm.. i think a key idea is that there are ultimately two domains in this reality. there is the realm of spacetime and then there is the realm of the will/duration. philosophers have given these two realms different names throughout the years -- matter and memory, will and representation, terminal and non-terminal...  in each case the latter aspect is in some sense "more fundamental" though you can still make amazing achievements in mastering the former

a chief example of the sorts of people who have mastered the former are autistic savants. the key way they do this is by translating problem solving tasks into perceptual tasks. actually intelligent autists usually learn language in a perceptual manner rather the usual way kids learn language which is more based upon joint attention. autists seem to be sort of bad at the whole attention thing and they dont seem all that good at managing multitasking somehow? so they sort of rely on this technique. but anyways how do you do this. i think the easiest way to induce this form of problem solving is indirectly. you want to start paying attention to certain things

1) the local and global aspects of a situation simultaneously. basically you wanna be able to approximate the ability to see both sides of the necker cube simultaneously (see the vampires in blindsight). actual savants are able to do this. for instance savant artists partly get their superior drawing skill by the fact that that they are somehow able to both keep in mind global proportional information as well as local details simultaneously. actually ive read somewhere incidentally that it isnt that autists process information locally, but rather they process every level all at once and it just so happens there is so much more local information than global

>>36805
this is what happens when u lack sodium and potassium in ur body..

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>>36805
(cont) so in the context of chess you wanna be able to look at parts of the board while also holding the whole board in your head. actually it is known that chess experts activate their fusiform face area so what i am saying here isnt that schizo. the only thing is that you can do it somewhat intentionally. the part that requires the most experience per se holding everything in your head globally but yes this is difficult, but it is also being able to hold all the intermediate layers. if you think about just a random game, it isn't necessarily obvious a priori what chunks of the game are at all interesting to keep in your head. experience with different situations and tactics helps to individuate different levels of awareness but this can take time especially if you arent looking for it

2) keep in your mind "interesting" features in what you are looking at. this is important for further pattern recognition. umm im not very good with examples. let us take for instance in calculus if you are doing an integral. sometimes the shape of the equation sort of tells you ok this looks like it might involve arctan or something like that... so you start making substitutions with that in mind. when you see and have ideas try and take notice of what exactly are the parts that lead to that approach and what was interesting there. it is almost really an aesthetic sort of sense you wanna cultivate here?

3) approach whatever you are looking at with the intention that you will uncover hidden patterns. the intention helps guide your mind to actually find such patterns

i think these aspects are probably sufficient. what savants do isnt that conscious and it is sort of spontaneous. maybe an extra thing is to let associations with other things you are familiar to you come to you if they do... but idk if it is something you need to force all too much?

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>>36806
gh real....

>>36807
the main thing you get from doing this is that your mind slowly comes to tune into a global structure that can fill in the blanks whenever you look at incomplete local information. incidentally this is likely the main reason you see domain specific superior memory in savants. their brain has all the relevant patterns down so they are able to fill in the blanks. in areas where things are really regular and there are a lot of patterns (the type of areas that autists are really attracted to) this filling in the blank is basically equivalent to perfect recall as the patterns are all veridical

so that is the aspect relating to space. the next one is related to durational/will... this one is the more "fundamental" aspect or maybe more metaphysical? it is fundamentally related to a sense of motion, even if it can be an extremely abstract from of motion. if you perfect this, you are able to basically compress thoughts into abstract kinesthetic impressions that get activated instantaneously (and also automatically). like the other one you also want to sort of try and tune into the right consciousness and stuff

1) where there is change, you want to monitor your mind with the vague intention that there are what i would call "motor activations". basically the impressions of movement. this sort of monitoring with light intention should eventually manifest the impressions

2) rehearsing things in your mind (i will generally call this motor imagery) is important for building up fluency. this helps with creativity and can also lead to general improvement

3) for complex processes you want to slowly compress your motor imagery to the point that you are able to recall the whole process faster and faster until you get to a point where it all occurs simultaneously

4) another thing you can do for complex processes is to break them down into smaller parts for experimentation then combine them together into one integrated process again

>>36808
basically i won chess game u lost

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noticing a hidden motor activation pattern above

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>>36810
noticing a noticing... im not manic i swear.,

>>36808
5) the last thing you can also do here is to approach whatever you are looking at with the vague intention that it is something that it can be "talked about". also when you have intuitions you can think

i want you to note there is actually a deep occult significance to especially these above ideas. for instance some of the ideas relate to this:
https://youtu.be/SFXrw6Ko0Qo?si=X4Bp7V7RPrrvybZm&t=240

actually i think there is a lot of overlap between the occult and control of your mind and body. rehearsal and motor activation patterns project into the body like here:
https://sluts4sale.com/s4s/thread/34764.html#35254

this is the origins of qi which can be understood as a real bioelectrical phenomenon. with the right mental state you can probably project a lot more into the body than is previously thought. these might be techniques that havent been used much since prehistoric shamans

intent is really important, and i think having the right state of consciousness can also be important as well. you can see think of the entire brain and by extension the bioelectrical organism (scientists have only really looked at the brain for this because they dont yet know) as a sort of thermodynamic system. entering certain states of consciousness for instance flow states or vipassana can "heat up" which make it possible to mold them easier. then as things "cool down" the injected patterns solidify. check out this article for more details: https://opentheory.net/2019/11/neural-annealing-toward-a-neural-theory-of-everything/

notice how this pattern of entering states of consciousness then letting them sort of solidify on their own is remarkably similar to that of chaos magick and i think some of the ideas there can be explained from a purely energetic rather than psychoanalytic framework (i havent quite fleshed htis out too much yet)...

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conclusion play tetris to train your occult abilities
current ost: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Soy4jGPHr3g

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>>36811
(cont) basically you want to enter gnosis to heat up your energetics to a point where it is pliable, then you want to stop thinking about it because in this pliable state you are more susceptible to conflicting influences...

another thing thats useful about entering these states is that when you are in a mindful or hypnotic state of consciousness the verbal parts of your mind are spending less time interfering with your ability to detect patterns. this might be one of the reasons why you see ideas like SATS get developed for manifestation

also connecting to the spatial autist side of things i think its useful to have this skill for things such as visualization. i also think you can sort of appreciate the importance of space if you you think like metaphysically. the functionality of space is to keep disparate elements separate whilst also existing simultaneously. it is also the medium through which things may combine contingently. this allows further experimentation. actually a lot of more combinatorial experimentation involves spatializing things somehow... it is also involved in the 4th technique i mentioned here >>36808 ... in other words the two aspect can not only be done parallel but they can also work synergistically. another way they work synergistically is through what i mentioend earlier in terms of the individuation of hierarchical levels. an idea in ecological psychology is that perception essentially involves affordances. in other words, experience with action can help cut up the world into parts and different levels of reality may emerge


*actually wait this is important i think both the spatial and durational aspects are actually important for contemplation. in the spatial domain there is that idea of slightly shifting all your intentional focus to one area while still keeping in mind the whole. check this out: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OI_3bQ-EWSI&ab_channel=BenjaminKeep%2CPhD%2CJD

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tetris change your perspective on lide and the universe
is is THE game spcecially when paired when hallucination shit like psychedelisc or dissociative .
it will open the gates to the world and BEYOND

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wtf

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>>36813
wtf playing tetris now...
>Stickgold et al. (2000) have proposed that Tetris effect imagery is a separate form of memory, likely related to procedural memory.[3] This is from their research in which they showed that people with anterograde amnesia, unable to form new declarative memories, reported dreaming of falling shapes after playing Tetris during the day, despite not being able to remember playing the game at all.
anyone know any good tetris effect induction techniques beyond just instilling the right motor memory through repeated planning or i guess thats just the technique...

also all of these ideas are so crucial ok its basically the ars notoria made modern...

>>36814
(cont) the motor side of contemplation is as ive mentioned earlier to take a process and integrate it into one whole. one thing to note is that you can do this not just with sequences of actions but also sequences of impressions and episodic/embodied metaphorical associations. also if you do the motor compression thing afterwards you are able to tap into a subtle level of intuition 

oh yeah this is actually i only now just really got. when you are doing all this stuff i need to stress again it is almost like getting at the right state of consciousness or tuning into the right information. to the extent you do make any associations and stuff it is something you sort of "let" happen on their own. you just give yourself the vague intention and observe everything blossom and combine together. if youve ever had times where you are visualizing something and then it takes a life of its own. its like that. see: active imagination. see spirits too

um ok idk where to put this but something i think thats also important is again aesthetics, being able to tune in to stuff that seems to stand out to you and developing a sense of aesthetic unity. also having a taste for problems as well as like what direction to a problem and ways of thinking/feeling out the problem that feels the right way

Bakabakashi

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>>36816
the lore just keeps getting deeper? ok going to get psych meds and binge play tetris jk about the psych meds part lol... 

>>36817
so also also that chris langan video i linked earlier really got me thinking about space and will and spirit formation... the nice part about spirits is that since they have some level of intelligence they can do some of the work of compressing things for you... random idea is maybe you cna create like a spirit thoughtform thing more intentionally by making use of space and duration together. like i said before space is the medium of simultaneity and contingent organization. duration meanwhile is that of temporal integration. you use duration and compression of processes to synthesize organs, while you use space to put together these organs into a single entity. then you use a "magic circle" (see: basically intentionally setting down boundaries for your focus throughout this process) as basically the morphological boundary of the spiritual organism. then you can "channel" what you have constructed. maybe you can use this idea to take it to a meta level so you can create a metaprocess that would compress things visualizations for you so it would be much closer to an actually living entity. though this might require you to have a good feeling for the process of forming intentions and compression on a general level (actually this is something you wanna take into account)

hmm i guess one last thing. when reading stuff it is useful to like try and pick up one what are the key terms/phrases and peculiarities in how the author is communicating to get an idea of how they think. then after that you plunge into the subtle motor contemplation intuition i mentioned before... uhh this one isnt that useful for chess but umm yeah 

>>36818
anyways thats my ted talk, i wrote this out to be fair to you because otherwise i feel like i would be bringing a nuke to a fist fighgt. good luck...

i keep ardcliking my mac trackpad and its doing a weird thing wtf why is this thing designed this way im not in the state rn to show restraint

psychiatrist gave me new medications and now i am enlightened by the biomechanical neural annealing process wihtin my mind's procedural memory overlapping with the game of tetris itself (analogous operation)

>>36821
theres occult on the right side of my notebook and chess tetris notes on the leeft right now (few get the esoteric significance of this)

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>>36823
nipah jumpscaree... nipaah~

i really shouldnt have spent 2 hours watching umineko and typing all of this out instead of sleeping...

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Wow

>>36831
yuo guys are grown ass men

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>>36831
You're an npc in my world.

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>>36839
Tetris DS had infinite spin, and I remember playing a game for like six hours straight. Tetris Plus on PS1 had some pretty good jams, even if the gameplay is kinda meh. OG Game Boy and SNES versions are what I consider the definitive version though.

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>>36839
In the past, various people have asked me what the Dao is…. My responses have varied depending on the occasion, the circumstances, and the level of my cultivation base. In fact, every single time, I gave a different answer. I’m not even sure what my answer will be the next time someone asks me. 
However, there is one thing that will never change, as far as I can tell. And that is… that I don’t know what the Dao is. There are too many answers to the question. All I know… is that what I am pursuing is freedom and independence. To be free and unconstrained. That is my truth, and that is my Dao! In cultivating truth, what we cultivate… is the heart. 
If your heart is steadfast, it cannot be trampled by Heaven or Earth, nor can it be broken by any living thing. You will never bow your head in acquiescence, and you will be able to advance without hesitation, and you will never stop moving forward. This is the meaning of cultivating the heart and cultivating the truth. It is traveling along the path of cultivation itself. 

Congratulations on beginning to walk the path of Transcendence. Your soul is still lacking, and at the moment, it’s a deficiency you cannot surpass. Leave. You already possess the power to depart from this starry sky. Go out into the Universe and search for the good fortune you need. Perhaps one day you will truly Transcend.