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I'm really drunk right now. 
I love all of you faggots here
however I'M normally schizoid and never feel emotions. 
A dude expresses constantly that he's going to kill himself and my choice is to put him into a quantum superposition of both dead and alive because that's easier for me to process. 
I love him really and want to be with him however I am still extremely selfish and want to spend many hours of the day alone by myself. I don't feel emotional empathy. 
Even though I know cognitively that someone is going through a bad time I don't feel those emotions myself and then I feel inadequate that I can't console him properly. 
Am I toxic?
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toxic isn't used in that sense retard
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>>27674
I don't understand!!!!!!
What sense do you mean. 
I'm not trying to manipulate people into doing what I want.
However I don't care about the feelings of othners, I just want them to return to the emotional state of neutrality or happiness.
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I forgot to mention. 
In order to put him into a quantum superposition I needed to ghost all of his posts.
However it's not like I didn't warn him. I told him that for me I need to ghost him while he's still alive so I can process him better when he's dead.
>>27675
Language is used to achieve a purpose. Toxicity is relative, I can't speak for him if he considers what you're doing (with regards to him) toxic.
It isn't a general state in a strict sense. The use of the term to describe someone generally refers to a tendency in their actions, but as we are describing something that is relative in a direct way it isn't meaningful for third parties to comment. There's some idea of what the cultural consensus would think, but unlike say "am I gross?" which while relative, is rooted in your own physical circumstances, "Am I toxic?" asks about the personal relationship between the viewer and your self. That is, the general public aren't a part of your relationship.
Do whatever the fuck you want, man.
macro level qauntum superposition isn't that simple unless you're visiting rokkenjima.
im so lonely
>>27673 (OP) 
and who is the lucky one?
i think you are your own person, you are not responsible for fixing others' problems. you can only really work on yourself and hope people see the good in you, the same way you see the good in them. maybe the person who wants to be with you has an image in their mind of who you are, and does not see you for the imperfectly perfect human being you are. i think that you must express yourself authentically to him, and if he accepts that, he is for you, but i don't really know anything, i'm a work in progress myself. we all are. maybe you can figure out your own way, and if anything, mistakes are to be made to learned from. it's a very difficult thing, emotional temperaments can sometimes be very fickle things, so take dear and loving care with them when you are trusted with them, anon.
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