snap out of it, man. life isn't junk, you're just in a funk. i know that even in the deepest sorrow, you are still capable of laughing and knowing joy, if even for a brief moment. life is inappropriately absurd like that sometimes, but it can be the very thing to keep you going. that happiness doesn't cost anything to know, only a willingness to accept and invite it into your life. try to take care of yourself man, snap the fuck out of it cause i don't like seeing others keep themselves down, nor do i like seeing others push others down. we're all trapped on this floating space rock together, and even if we lead mundane lives, we still have eachother.